Out With The Old (2014) : In WIth The New (2015)

In Feb of 2011 I started this blog spot.  I started it as a college project that was a requirement to complete a course.  The criteria called for me to develop and improve a blog site and enhance it as the course advanced.  I was to reach out and grow its following as I wrote and published blogs.  I will admit that when I first started the assignment I was not real motivated to do anything more then meet the requirements to pass with a solid A.   While my passion is to write I was satisfied with hand writing in my journals that now number in the triple digits.  I still do the majority of my writing by hand writing in those journals, documenting the moments of my life in assigned journals to the people in my life. 

My hand written journals are precious to me and I rarely end a day that I am not handwriting in one or more of them, keeping them updated with the memories I cherish.  My thoughts, my feelings, my fears, my happiness.  I have designated journals to each person in my life that has impacted it in one way or another.  Family and friends, those that have died and those that are still living.  I have journals that lay out travel agenda's, where I went and what I accomplished as I traveled the states.   Handwriting these days is a lost art to most of the world, but not to me.  The times I sit to write in my journals is therapeutic and allows me to relax in a state of mind free of social media, electronic devices and the crazy business of the world today.

In early Feb of 2012 I met a little girl, Grace, that had terminal cancer and was near the end of her fight.  I would walk her journey to Eternity with her until late May of 2012 when she took her last breath of life.  I spent four months working with Gracie on her story, on her terms.  She would dictate the story of her life to me and once she left us I would write the story of her death.  There were 40 blogs that were dedicated to my little Amazing Gracie that touches on our time together in the final months of her young life.  Those 40 blogs would reach over 29 countries and be read by over 22,000 people.  It was enough to blow my blog assignment out of the water. 

This was no longer an assignment to me, it was not even a hobby.  It has become my mission to share my own journey in life as I followed the lives of the people I love along on their journey's and shared it with anyone who wanted to walk that journey with us.  The number of people my blogs have reached is simply outstanding.  What started as a college assignment has become therapeutic and important to me.  I continue to blog about various things going on in my life, in my mind, and in my heart.  While not all my blogs are well read most of them have reached unexpected reads from an enormous amount of individuals around the world. 

In 2013 I published over 70 blogs on this BlogSpot I call Beyond A Breath Of Life.  In 2014 I published almost 35 blogs mainly due to creating another BlogSpot that has a darker edge to it that I have not yet made public.  I have high school students that intern to help me with this blog site, sifting through comments and emails regarding the list of blogs.  I personally try to answer as many questions as I can from my blog followers but it has become impossible to keep up with that on my own. 

As 2014 ends I can close out this years blog statistics very strong and very much satisfied with how well received my entries have been.  As 2015 approaches I am prepared for the long year ahead of blogging more spiritual, heart warming journey's of the people in my life.  I am committed to this blog site and the followers for as long as they are interested in following me in my journey here on earth.  In 2015 I will share more of my personal journey as well.  Where I came from, where I am today and where I hope to be in the future.  How I got to where I am, physically and mentally and spiritually. 

My followers have made me passionate about my blogs and they are becoming just as important to me as my hand written journals.  I appreciate all the feedback you give me and I cannot thank you enough for sharing my blogs with your family and your friends.  Thank you for the past three years and I look forward to sharing so many more years with all of you.  You inspire me and I truly enjoy conversing with those of you that reach out to me.

I hope your 2014 was everything you hoped it would be and I wish you all a great 2015.  I invite you to join me on social media if you would like to, where I also publish my blogs.  It is my hope that in the future some of you will want to be a third party guest on my BlogSpot and publish some of your own blogs to share with my followers.  If you would like to follow me on a few of my other social media accounts please request my friendship.  Again, thank you for being apart of a wonderful 2014.

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A New Year, A New Outlook

Although I've never faced death personally I have witness death from many different angles in those that were close to me as they took their last breath of life.  I've lost two siblings in vehicle related deaths, a brother to cancer, a mother to a stroke and a dad, well, I'm not really sure how he died, but he also is gone.  I have lost friends to cancer, natural causes, old age, broken hearts, suicide.  I have witnessed friends lose a child at the age of eight and friends who lost a child before he was even born. 

On this blog site I write about the deaths I have witnessed.  How I felt, how I imagine those that lost their loved ones felt.  It is how I deal with the pain of losing people in my life that I love.  Sharing those moments of my life with others is a comfort to me as I imagine my blog followers relating to my pain as I relate to theirs.  I write in hopes of helping others in their times of grief, or maybe help them understand what they one day will feel as they lose a loved one.

While one truly will never fully understand the pain someone else suffers from losing someone close to them, I think we can all agree that it is painful and that we all grieve the same even though we grieve differently.  I wouldn't even say there are different levels of grief because no matter how you are grieving the pain is still there.  That unimaginable pain that we never knew existed until we experienced it.  Yes, it hurts. It hurts bad and it hurts forever.  The grieving process of losing and missing a loved one never leaves.

As blog followers you have read about the many journey's of people in my life that ended here on earth.  I have shared some spiritual blogs and I have mixed in a few random acts of kindness blogs along the way as well.  However the majority of the blogs on this site were about death, dying, losing battles and struggles of everyday life.  I also have a blog site that contains some very dark content that I have yet to share in the manner in which I share this blog site.  The things I consider worse than death.

I guess what I am trying to relay to you through this blog is that my life is not just about death. Sure I have struggled greatly in that area and I have seen my share of struggles in my life, but I also have stories about those that survived.  Those that survived an illness, a suicide attempt, a car wreck, an accident at home.  There are many stories of survival I have witnessed.  Those that won their fight and those that are still fighting. 

It's important to me that you know my life is not all about the pain and suffering and deaths that end the struggles of people I have crossed paths with.  My life is also full of joy for those that have won, those that have beat their diseases, beat the odds against the struggles they faced in their paths.  Those that are still on their journey with the strength of a warrior, pushing past everything set before them in life.  Their lives took a turn in a big way but they accepted that challenge, accepted that change and came out stronger and better then you or I could ever have imagined. 

This New Year, 2015, that is approaching in just a few short days will bring a new light to this blog site.  Although I will continue to blog about death and its effect on our hearts and our souls and our minds, I will also blog about the survival of friends and family who fought hard through their struggles in life to continue their journey here on earth.  I hope you will all continue to follow this site this next year and share my blogs with those in your life that you feel may benefit from their contents. 

Thank you for helping me reach so many people in so many countries by supporting my efforts to become a writer, a journalist and following me through my college years.  It's been a great 2014 and I do hope you follow me in 2015 as my life takes even bigger strides in becoming a published writer and journey through the rest of my life with the girl of my dreams.

God Bless and may 2015 be a year full of success and happiness to each and everyone of you.

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